Could it be? Is the end of my divorce really in sight?
I'm not sure what I will do, without talking to my lawyer every couple of weeks!
A couple of weeks ago, I signed of on my final marriage settlement agreement. My lawyer told me that I would have to appear in court for the final judgment and I was relieved... maybe even excited at the thought of this aspect of my life finally being over.
Thank goodness, there is an end to this.
I have told friends that my divorce will be over on Monday. Most of them warned me that I will probably have an emotional storm... They saw the final judgment as that 'last nail' in the coffin on their relationship. There is no chance of recovery... etc... etc...
You have to laugh a little after the year I've had.
Once it was over... it was over... I have not missed him or wished that we could have gotten back together. I've forgotten anniversaries and holidays that were once important. I've grieved for the pain and heartache of my marriage.
I've been constantly reminded of 'who' I was really married to and what it is going to continue to be like... (missed phone calls, partial child support payments, late pick-ups, lies, blah, blah, blah)
I get it... I really do... He wasn't the man that I thought I was marrying. He will always be who he is. For the rest of our lives, we will have to work with (or at least deal with) each other because of our daughter.
The final judgment is not going to make him pay his bills on time or be reliable. It is just a piece of paper.
I've been living the single life for over a year now. So, really, what is left to cry for?
PS: I am working on getting a commenting program installed. In the near future, I won't just be asking rhetorical questions!